Continued Prayers Please…

Sean is going to be leaving on a trip to alaska for 2 weeks and so aaron and i wanted to get a sean a korean/english bible so he could have it with him while he was traveling.  aaron ordered the bible and praise the Lord it came in yesterday!

last night i went over to sean’s house with the bible.  when i got there, he was excited to see me and he lead me to his room.  he started showing me new songs and replaying old ones that moved his heart which we normally do because music is our biggest form of communication.  as our hearts were softened through chris tomlin, jeremy camp, and falling slowly youtube music videos, the night progressed towards Jesus Christ.  we began to talk about the baptism that took place.  he began to explain to me that he wants to do that so bad but he doesnt know if he has the strength or the guts to do it.  i was then given the opportunity to speak more clearly on exactly what baptism represents and the purpose for doing it.  I began to explain that there is a time in a christian’s life, whether it be gradual or instant, that he or she has to ask Jesus Christ to come into his/her heart to change it and that that is what brings brand new EPIC life to a human.  As we talked, he was looking at me with awe.

Sean began to explain to me that when he first met me he only had $400 in his bank account, But because of that extreme kindness and generosity i was showing him, he told me he wanted to empty his bank account and everything he owned into my hands because he loved me so much and he felt like he could never pay me back.  BUT he than began to explain that tonight he understands why david is so kind…he said that he now knows that it is not david being kind but it is GOD inside of david being kind and that he desires to give everything he owns into GOD’s hands because it is Him who he loves so much and could never pay back.  I then said, “how did you know that?  i never told you anything like that!”.  He said he knows!  he said that he was just realizing it right now because GOD was opening his eyes.  He stopped and said…i think it is time that i allow God into my heart.

He asked if i would explain exactly how to do this and if i would lead the prayer so he could follow.  i explained how to do that through prayer and encouraged him to talk to GOD like He is a human…to be himself and yet to respect His greatness.  So i prayed for sean that his words would be what they need to be and that they would represent what is going on in his heart.  after that, sean opened up to THE LORD!  he was talking directly to him and he explained everything that he was experiencing in the past couple months and how he knew it was HIM, GOD.  after telling Him that he wanted to give everything to Him, he then asked if God would come into His heart.

directly at that moment, sean became extremely, strangely, uncomfortable.  he looked up at me and he couldnt get the words out.  he couldnt explain what was happening to him and he kept on getting extremely frustrated about what was happening and that he had no means of explaining what was happening to him.

honestly, it was scary.  i new it was evil, and i new it was an attack but i didnt understand how this could be or the extent of it.  Sean finally could get the words up to explain what was happening.  he told me that for the first time in his life he understood that there was a God, and he explained that by making a sphere with his hands on the outside of his body (like holding a ball).  but he then explained, while still holding onto the “ball”, that as he was praying, he could see into his heart.  sean then looked down at his own chest and said, “who are you?”.  he said he then realized that for the past 20 years satan had been ruling his heart and that he never even knew that he was there.  he then explained to me that the reason he felt so uncompfortable was because he didnt think that satan was that bad, and that, he thought he was living a full life.  he explained to me in a way that the life he is living right now doesnt fit what the “ball” demands.

I then got the opportunity to explain that the heart can only have one master.  i lifted up my hands, each having one finger pointing up representing two different masters.  i showed him that by putting one to my chest and the other out in front of me was  the only way a man can live.  i put both to my chest and explained that this is not possible.  i then explained that if a person desires for the GOD of this universe to enter into him, he has to rid of the master that rules now and give full control to the real master.

we ended up talking forever about it and he pretty much ended with saying that he knows the path that he is on now doesnt seem that bad but will lead to stealing, killing and destruction, and that GOD’s path will lead to full life, but it was so hard for him to see right now.  he said that he feels like he stepped in front of a fork in the road and that he needs to choose one way and only one way.  he seemed scared, and he asked if i would be praying for him during his trip.  the night was terribly late, and needed to come to an end.  we hugged like there was no tomorrow and looked into each others eyes like Christ was glowing on each of our faces.  he said he was going to miss me and then ended with…oh by the way david, i am gay.

Sean seemed to take great pleasure in my facial expression due to his laughing until it hurt and him trying to explain that he really wasnt gay:)

anyways…what happened in sean’s heart is supernatural.  period.  if sean has the God of the universe in his heart is not for me to decide, but is for me to pray about, and i am asking that you would pray with me as well for sean as he is gone.

May Jesus Christ reign in the heart of sean.