Atheism’s “Grasp”

If I am beginning to learn anything about Christ and the Holy Spirit, it is that He does what He wants, when He wants, to whom He wants, through whom He wants, whenever He wants, wherever He wants and however He wants…and nothing…might i say it again…nothing gets in His way.  It is just unbelievable that THAT is the God that is inside of me, that i have surrendered to be submitted to.  The more i really learn His voice, what He desires and how to respond to it…the more LIFE i will truly experience AND an understanding of what it means to be behind a God who truly IS unstoppable.

Last night the guys that i have been leading worship with were asked to lead the minnesota missions team, that came out to seattle to help out, into an intimate time of worship and thanksgiving.  and ya know…it was just one of those days that you wake up and there just seems to be a cloud around your head, hindering your eyes to see anything except how sucky your day is.  

I walked into the night exhausted.  BUT i had a friend who wanted to come and hear the kind of music that i create.  This friend of mine just happened to be an atheist i had met on the bus a couple weeks ago.  He would always tell me that God sort of seemed like a foolish idea to him especially considering he really didnt even need one but he liked that i was very interested in his heart and in the way that he thinks.  

The temptation of a worship leader is to think that only people who understand worship and who have any kind of relationship with Christ can partake in a night like last night.  What i seem to forget is the the very first sentence in this post.  

The night, due to no other reason except that the Holy Spirit came to be glorified, was awesome.  When we finished, all i could think about was what my friend had been thinking, how he was effected, was he ok or was he bored out of his mind?  

 

i went and sat right next to him as everyone proceeded to talk.  i asked him how he was doing…and he just sat there.  after about 30 seconds of silence, here is about what the first sentence out of his mouth sounded like:  i…um…i………ah….i am…just……i am just lucky….lucky to be here….ah…….just……lucky to have met you.  he began to tell me that for 20 years of his life he had never known a real true christian, that everything about the night was glorious…that he had never experienced something holy before, that every word that was coming out of my mouth was glorious, beautiful and holy.  he told me that the entire night his skin was standing up.  as he continued to talk in this state of awe, my heart continued to whisper to God saying, Lord, he is speaking about You and i dont even know if he knows it, may You show him where that is coming from and claim Your glory.  He contiuned to repeat himself over and over again.  he began telling me that before the night started that God just wasnt an option for him but that he couldnt not take what was going on inside of him into account.  He said that he felt like he wasnt open to a God before but that now a large portion of his heart has to reconsider it.  

He was so excited.  he looked at me and said i still dont know if there is a God, but that if there is, He created you for tonight so that I could experience Him.  He just smiled, sighed and fell back into the pew with his hands behind his head and said, “hmm…this feeling isnt so bad”.

 

I encouraged him to talk to the Lord tonight and ask Him if He was real.  he then got excited and seemed to have recieved a revelation like that WAS the next thing to do!  he then asked me…then what?  if He does reveal Himself to me in a way that i would understand, than what do i do?  i then told him to ask Him why He created you.  He was so excited and said that he will do that.  

 

What can bring our God down?  What can separate Him from His people knowing and experiencing the Life He promises?  …nothing, literally.

 

please pray for Sean (is his name).  the Lord is drawing him to Himself and desires to set him free from the world that he might step into true life and understand his need for HIM.