i was laying in bed dozing in and out, when i had this “partial” dream…it sounds a little weird when i try to explain it, but it meant so so much when given to me. i saw this tiny little human. it was mine. it was like having a cute little pet dog or something of that sort. i just remember being so in love with it, and that was before it did ANYTHING! here’s the thing…everything i asked it to do, it did, and it was so excited to do! whether i asked it to go right or left, it didnt matter…i even asked it to jump off the side of the table (which was a death drop for him) not for any huge reason, just to see if he would actually trust me. i knew it would be ok because my hands were there to catch him, but i knew he had no idea. But he had no hesitation…in fact he started running to the edge before i could finish my sentence in asking him, and he ran as fast as he could and jumped as far as he could with no hesitations. …hmm…
it was such a simple dream and really short too, but it was so powerful. pretty much nothing even came close to mattering to him to the extent that he wanted to please me. that was the only thing that was worth anything and everything to him. nothing matter to him but that…whether it was doing something he expected death in, whether it was something that totally degraded his name, whether it made any sense or not…as long as it made me happy he wanted to do it so bad! and to be honest, despite the fact that i loved no matter what…my heart was so…ah…i cant even explain it in words…it was so…it just made me so happy that it brought me to tears…
what if…what if that was my heart for my Jesus…mmm…
Lord, create in me a heart that finds absolute joy it doing literally anything and everything that just makes You happy…make it that simple for me…in Your name Jesus i ask for this one thing…i trust You are forming my heart to that very nature…that second nature…
